Well, a "long strange trip it has been" (boy I could throw out so many quotes, but I'll refrain)...and here we are the build IS going to happen. To say it's been easy is a long shot. The selling of house was easy, but actually bidding the project, was hard. However, I realized on my walk tonight that all things overlap and intersect. They all come to a point where they should. This past year has been forced me to dig deep. I was talking with Paulie today and said, I'm not used to something "new", and feel as if this build is like wearing a new coat that I usually would never try on, but here we are and we are going to embrace it. Mind you we thrift shop for almost EVERYTHING!
While, the build is so exciting I would rather have the following: my brother to be happy and healthy, to have Mr. Boo back, to have my parents not worry, to have Paulie be in my life forever, and the list goes on, but I've realized this summer that I have to accept whatever comes my way...to not fight it. While, the build is a materialistic concept it serves the same purpose it taught me to be patient, to not be so negative, to give up some of your "must haves" to "what I must need-haves".
The process was grueling at times, the first bid came back at a ridiculously high amount of 246,000 and we thought the project was dead (and that is part of negative imprinting that things go bad)...but our AMAZING architect said..."don't walk away from your dream". He was right. So, we waited and waited until last week and it was still looking bleak 3 out of 5 bids backed out. One bid was over our budget, and the very last bid which came in late was right on target. However, Paul and I have always lived our adult lives extremely, I mean extremely frugally, we have done this all on our own, so we thought there was no way this will work we will use up all our savings and won't have anything left. We thought about selling the land, buying a cheap fixer, and paying off the college loan (that yes I still have), but we waited. My parents said look for something else, but we waited. Waiting is good sometimes, or most of the times, I suppose they call that patience, right?
So, while we were talking the other night mind you in 900 sq. ft you spend a lot of time together and I said we need to approach this as if it will work, as if we do have the money to build and guess what it did. Paul met today with our loan officer (and if the appraisal goes smoothly fingers crossed) we will be building a home meant for 1 artisan and 1 artist. This house is not meant for everyone...we won't have the embellishments, the typical...but what would you expect from Paul and I anyway? So, we got the final and official nod we ARE financially fit. I will do my best to come under budget on almost everything that is just in my nature.
Our house will not be a showcase, but it will have a purpose....to make jigs, to make art, to eat good food, to play with kitties, and hopefully live a longer life together. We are excited! Wish us well, because one thing I've learned is be positive and have patience!
So, godspeed to all the above mentioned...may you Kurtie accept where you're at and in time things will be at place and your "new normal" will work for you - love you, that Dad you worry less and fish more, that Mr. Boo that it's ok you went so unexpectedly- you sent us one exceptional kitty...BLU!, and that the rest of you live up to your dreams.
I leave above what appears to look like a box..but what you can't see is that what matters happens inside (so mom and dad look past the vinyl siding..tee hee). The south end will have a river view, which includes the kitchen to the left and my art studio to the right. Art to be made!
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